Hello once again dear reader!
I've been gone for a long time, but I assure you it hasn't been for any reason other than laziness.
Over the past year (when I was busy not writing) I realized how fast life moves. In a moment, and this one just comes along, you realize that you've grown up. It might be a sudden realization, like turning 20 (like yours truly) or passing a certain milestone in life, or simply the weight of more responsibilities. There isn't a definitive yardstick for measuring this, but in your heart of hearts, you just know.
Now this whole concept, in my humble opinion, is subjective. I've used the word "realization" because growing up isn't something that your parents or friends or therapist can define for you. It's a feeling that comes from within. Again, everyone has a different way of finding out that they've grown up and that's probably for the best.
Again, this isn't a bad thing. Not at all.
You realize that you have a greater appreciation of your life and its gifts and have found some people who rely on you and on whom you can rely. You somehow feel more empowered, more driven to follow your dreams and aspirations. You somehow feel the need to behave in a certain way, which in your opinion is the right one.
My opinions in this matter, I feel, are fairly limited given my age. Most (assuming there are any) readers might just dismiss these as the musings of a teenager who's just afraid to turn 20 and they might be right, but this is how I feel right now and that's why I'm writing.
This "grown up" life is of course filled with bursts of childish wants, those secret jokes you make with the people you care about and the occasional impulsive reaction. But this is all important. All necessary.
This is also accompanied by the subtle irony of liking things you hated, the silent judgement of those you deem "un-serious" and the occasional wish of being a kid again.
At this point I feel conflicted at the thought of growing up, but it's an idea that I am in love with right now. Knowing that everything has worked out. That everything has finally fallen into place.
So this is where I leave you.
Keep shining. Keep growing :)
I've been gone for a long time, but I assure you it hasn't been for any reason other than laziness.
Over the past year (when I was busy not writing) I realized how fast life moves. In a moment, and this one just comes along, you realize that you've grown up. It might be a sudden realization, like turning 20 (like yours truly) or passing a certain milestone in life, or simply the weight of more responsibilities. There isn't a definitive yardstick for measuring this, but in your heart of hearts, you just know.
Now this whole concept, in my humble opinion, is subjective. I've used the word "realization" because growing up isn't something that your parents or friends or therapist can define for you. It's a feeling that comes from within. Again, everyone has a different way of finding out that they've grown up and that's probably for the best.
Again, this isn't a bad thing. Not at all.
You realize that you have a greater appreciation of your life and its gifts and have found some people who rely on you and on whom you can rely. You somehow feel more empowered, more driven to follow your dreams and aspirations. You somehow feel the need to behave in a certain way, which in your opinion is the right one.
My opinions in this matter, I feel, are fairly limited given my age. Most (assuming there are any) readers might just dismiss these as the musings of a teenager who's just afraid to turn 20 and they might be right, but this is how I feel right now and that's why I'm writing.
This "grown up" life is of course filled with bursts of childish wants, those secret jokes you make with the people you care about and the occasional impulsive reaction. But this is all important. All necessary.
This is also accompanied by the subtle irony of liking things you hated, the silent judgement of those you deem "un-serious" and the occasional wish of being a kid again.
At this point I feel conflicted at the thought of growing up, but it's an idea that I am in love with right now. Knowing that everything has worked out. That everything has finally fallen into place.
So this is where I leave you.
Keep shining. Keep growing :)
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